For a girl who has nothing to do, I think my life not bad sia. I've got like no job, but I'm still out everyday, except today. And I'm not that broke. And I'm never out of people to talk to on the phone.
I'm just trying to figure out why I'm still feeling so upset.
Well, I miss cuddling. ALOT. I miss cuddling, cuddling, cuddling. ): I miss cuddling. IMISSMISSMISS cuddling.
I'm like not made to be single. Perhaps not haing a guy is like, this god-forbidden thing.
YA RIGHT. HUIYAN, THE PROBLEM IS THAT YOU HAVE BEEN SLEEPING MORE THAN 10 HRS EVERY SINGLE DAY AND NOW YOU'RE HALLUCINATING.
This is all so wrong, I swear. I'm like meeting different guys all the time. Not one has yet to turn me on or make me go ga-ga or make me feel those fluttering butterflies. THIS IS SO WRONG. They are all so nice, And then I'll be like 'YAY, I'VE MADE A NEW BEST FRIEND!' But deep inside I know they're just nice cos I appeal to them. And then I'll stop answering calls or replying msges. And then it's like totally horrible. Oh karen, how can u fking stay single for so long? Or reena? Or yy? Not zy though. I think it is 'cos we're the crazy bitches. Man, I'm bored.
Perhaps I should tell him I like him. But alot other girls interested in him too. ): God, gimme a break!
): aww. I really like him ay.
Not fair.
RAH.
I'm just insane cos I'm hungry. JEES. K told me maggie mee is utterly sinful @ this time of the day.
REALLY.
I'M ONLY INSANE COS I'M HUNGRY.
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
stopped` revolving ma world round him. if he wait. proves me the commitment`
bloggin in a bore. i feel lyk deleting e whole thing
evrything is a bore.
yes, every single thing.
can someone JUST spice up ma life????
Saturday, January 01, 2005
xiAo-K` AkA siaO kiA says:
u r walking alone.. past this dark graveyard..... one stretch of road... this guy whu walks with u... freaks out... leaves u now..... now.. a wanderrer,.. went up t u seeing u are scared.... feels in his heart. u r the girl whu nids someone.. he helds ur hand lifts u up and walks with u...
ya[N]n-] every breath i take; a meaningless one. says:
and de truth iss e ger wants 2 stay in e graveyard n continue to b in e dark n wait for him to come backk.. cos no1 will give her de warmth lyk any1 else... no lips will taste e same....
xiAo-K` AkA siaO kiA says:
the wonderer looks into her eys and sees the faith and hope but the sad truth was. if he will be back he would be back by now.....
ya[N]n-] every breath i take; a meaningless one. says:
she close her eyes..she rfuse 2 xcept e truthh
xiAo-K` AkA siaO kiA says:
he hugzx her say whisperss to her.... let it be gone. the darkness no longer comes and stays.. i will bring him back....
ya[N]n-] every breath i take; a meaningless one. says:
how do u bring him backk..?
xiAo-K` AkA siaO kiA says:
how?
xiAo-K` AkA siaO kiA says:
pin piont
xiAo-K` AkA siaO kiA says:
style
ya[N]n-] every breath i take; a meaningless one. says:
??...
ya[N]n-] every breath i take; a meaningless one. says:
don understan..
xiAo-K` AkA siaO kiA says:
but..
xiAo-K` AkA siaO kiA says:
i cant.
xiAo-K` AkA siaO kiA says:
casue i dont noe him....
ya[N]n-] every breath i take; a meaningless one. says:
i noe.
ya[N]n-] every breath i take; a meaningless one. says:
i noe u cant..
xiAo-K` AkA siaO kiA says:
the wonderrer looks into her eys and says.....
ya[N]n-] every breath i take; a meaningless one. says:
no1 can..
xiAo-K` AkA siaO kiA says:
his gone..
xiAo-K` AkA siaO kiA says:
don wait...
xiAo-K` AkA siaO kiA says:
lets go....
xiAo-K` AkA siaO kiA says:
he held out his hand stands there..... and wait and wait and wait
ya[N]n-] every breath i take; a meaningless one. says:
e ger rfuse 2 move a stepp. is him she wants. she will wait... even if he don ccome backk........... she trust he will..
ya[N]n-] every breath i take; a meaningless one. says:
one dayy...
xiAo-K` AkA siaO kiA says:
the wonderer sits down beside the girl.. and waited.... and waited....
xiAo-K` AkA siaO kiA says:
with the girl for him to come back
all i want is him. i desire 4 him. hes all i want to feel. only in his arms will i feel complete. only with him will i feel totally secure. only his saliva tastes lyk lovee. live on his breath lyk humans live on water.
dry ma tears. only u can.
no youu; no me`
Friday, December 31, 2004
Sunday, December 26, 2004
After living a decent life my time on earth came to an end. The first thing I remember is sitting on a bench in the waiting room of what I thought to be a courthouse. The doors opened, and I was instructed to come in and have a seat by the defense table.As I looked around I saw the prosecutor. He was a villainous-looking gent who snarled as he stared at me. He definitely was the most evil person I have ever seen.I sat down and looked to my left and there sat my lawyer, a kind and gentle looking man whose appearance seemed very familiar to me. The corner door flew open and there appeared the Judge in full, flowing robes. He commanded an awesome presence as he moved across the room and I couldn't take my eyes off of him. As he took his seat behind the bench he said, "Let us begin."The prosecutor rose and said, "My name is Satan, and I am here to show you why this man belongs in hell." He proceeded to tell of lies that I had told, things that I had stolen, and how I had cheated others in the past. Satan told of other horrible perversions that were once in my life, and the more he spoke the further down in my seat I sank. I was so embarrassed that I couldn't look at anyone, even my own lawyer, as the devil told of sins that even I had completely forgotten about.As upset as I was at Satan for telling all these things about me, I was equally upset at my representative who sat there silently not offering any form of defense at all. I knew I was guilty of those things, but I had done some good in my life,couldn't that at least equal out part of the harm I had done?Satan finished with a fury and said, "This man belongs in hell. He is guilty of all that I have charged, and there is not a person who can prove otherwise. Justice will finally be served this day."When it was his turn, my lawyer first asked if he might approach the bench. The Judge allowed this, over Satans strong objections, and beckoned him to come forward. As he got up and started walking I was able to see him now in his full splendor and majesty. Now I realized why he seemed so familiar, this was Jesus representing me, my Lord and my Savior.He stopped at the bench and spoke softly to the Judge, then turned to address the court. "Satan was correct in saying that this man has sinned, I wont deny any of these allegations. And yes, the wages of sin is death, and this man deserves to be punished."Jesus took a deep breath and turned to his Father with outstretched arms and proclaimed, "However, I died on the cross so that this person might have eternal life, and he has accepted me as his Savior, so he is mine."My Lord continued with, "His name is written in the book of life, and no one can snatch him from me. Satan still does not understand yet, this man is not to be given justice but rather mercy."As Jesus sat down, he quietly paused, looked at his Father and replied, "There is nothing else that needs to be done. I've done it all."The Judge lifted his mighty hand and slammed the gavel down and the following words bellowed from his lips, "This man is free. The penalty for him has already been paid in full, case dismissed."As my Lord led me away I could hear Satan ranting and raving, "I wont give up, Ill win the next one!"I asked Jesus, as he gave me my instructions, "Where to go next, Have you ever lost a case?"Christ lovingly smiled and said, "Everyone that has come to me and asked me to represent them has received the same verdict as you, paid in full."Touching Hearts ... Changing Lives ....
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
thks for all who cares. thks 4 e bookks. thks 4 all e commentts. thks 4 all e advises. bud is too latee.. we had fallen too deepp. too deep. is hard 2 get upp. is hard 2 let go of erything noww.
thks mum. 4 addin more pressuree on me. thanks. bud i don need it. at ALL.
will ma lifee be hardd. will i feel incompletee. will i regret and want to tik back my every word. paradise is so out of reachh.
Monday, December 20, 2004
im sori. i don want 2 answerr.i cant tok dru ma tears. im sori 4 being so coldd. i dont mean to. im sorii.... for evrythingg.
i love youu. i really do. can u trust me....................................
if u cant xcept me for who i am.
den leavee.
does being together means being seein each other evry dayy? sori bud im nt dat crzy overr you. yet. mayb all i need is tymm. u don lyk ppl who tiks away ur freedomm. bud, ur tikin away MY freedomm. don i have e right 2 go out wid ma gerfriends anymore? uhh. xcuse me. i wont b free on monday, tuesday , wednesday , thursday, christmas eve n christmas. live wid dat or leavee. forr all i caree.
i scold vulgar when i wants to. i did nt change. u took too long 2 realise who i really am. or u didn bother 2 really understand me bfore askin me dat damn qustionn.
for goodness sake. i need no guyy.
im taking youu for granteted again. damn mee.
